Today is valentine .
but ,
what am i doing ?
finished crying yesterday .
and have thought thru .
i am able to let pengguan go .
why can't i let Clarence go ?
its th same thing .
same feeling .
just that its different people .
plus ,
pengguan and i were together for 8months .
me and him is just like a week -.-
it sounded like a joke leh .
ok .
don't wana emphasis on .
maybe this time round ,
its time to really heed their advise .
give him up .
his action says ,
i'm just an 'extra' .
his action says ,
he love his girlf more and aren't able to let go .
his action tells me ,
he wants me to give it up .
till now ,
i'm unable to believe his words .
everything you said .
i should be happy .
but ,
unable to believe .
if i really do
i'm gonna be hurt even harder and deeper .
let me say this for th last time .
things will change in due time .
i believe ,
i will be able to change my feeling for you .
towards you .
i only want to be your friend .
hangout together ,
slack together and drink together .
nomore other thing alr bah .
thats what i should do know .
i'm tired of your excuses .
i'm tired of your lies .
and ,
i nolonger wana lie to my own heart that you still loves me .
or ,
you don't love me from th beginning .
you say you were disappointed at whatever i wrote .
but ,
have you once explained to me ?
have you once trying to confirm that ,
it isn't th truth atall .
no .
you don't bother to clarify things .
then should i WAIT till you're happy then you talk to me ?
firstly ,
i aren't your dog .
you happy ,
you call
and i have to run towards you .
and then ,
i have done so much for you .
you don't even have a sense of appreciation ..
you don't care .
you think its my own problem .
thats all what i wana do myself .
have you ever spare a thought for me atall .
i gave up many options in life .
and i wonder why ?
is this a curse ?
all of them urge me to give you up not because of
whathappened that day .
but ,
they see me in sorrows .
i cried in kpt .
imagine that ?
imagine th pain .
i can't even imagine .
i will cry again if i do so .
i don't hate you .
i don't hate any1 in my life .
i will slowly think thru .
whats not meant to be mine ,
will not be .
i should really understand what it means .
so that ,
i won't be so painful in life .
or ...
whatever that happens in life .
said before .
to everything
i have a limit to it .
once you cross it ,
thats it .
you wana treat me so cold ?
wana leave me alone like all of a sudden .
and
with many excuses coming up .
then ,
i guess ...
aren't you telling me to give eveything up ?
i will .
you need not worry .
i nolonger will be th third party .
it hurts .
idk whats up with th both of you .
it isn't up to me to determine anyways .
please ,
get on with your life .
get her back .
and i ,
will try and get on with my life also .
it'll be hard .
but ,
i believe i can (:
i stil wana be your friend .
i still wana share my troubles with you .
i hope so .
if its so easy .
sigh .
don'twish to probe on it le .
my heart and mind is tired .
damn tired .
anyways ,
HAPPY VALENTINE DAY ALL (:
enjoy with your partners to th max today .
remember ,
i'll be glad to share your joy .
takecare all ^^
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