gotta brace myself up to be able to live alone .
have many quiet times for me to think .
some things ,
are not what i wanted it to happen in my life though .
but ,
it has to happen .
since it alr had ,
i should leave it .
since ,
i have no way to solve it .
listening to my blog song recently .
has a great lyric .
im not a good lover .
how true it is .
chat with ben de girlf last night .
she resembles my past .
we have th same attitude .
but ,
i'm sure ,
we treat relationship seriously .
she asked me .
why din't i do anything when i discover my boyf was timer-ing .
i told her .
firstly ,
i wouldn't bear to see my love one bleed .
it wasn't really hate .
but ,
disappointment .
secondly ,
it has alr happened .
what if i find some1 to beat him up .
or i myself beat him .
what will i gain .
plus ,
knowing this wound will be in my heart for life .
whether or not i will be healed ,
it only depends on whether i want or not to make myself walk to th hospital .
some wounds on me ,
could be healed by itself .
some wounds i've gottened this year ,
isn't .
be it relationship or friendship .
i couldn't .
th cut is too deep or something like that ?
have choosen to let many good guys slipped away .
i always choose to grab th 'bad' ones .
and ,
really hurt myself twice .
i can only blame myself for choosing this path eh ?
will be leading a lonely life in th future .
maybe ,
thats another good way to calm myself down instead ?
i love writing my thoughts and feelings here .
so ,
it tends to have more words .
not much pctures .
if you feel its boring ,
please ,
just click th red button on th top right hand corner .
i don't need people to fake as if they care alright ?
but ,
i appreciate those who really cares are 'tune in' to my blog every now and then .
thank's alot pretty and dudes (:
having th same feeling as my mommy .
i really feel like leaving singapore .
throw my worries here and leave .
was really wanting to head for thailand .
but ,
unable to .
mom only wanted to go to malaysia .
sigh .
wonder when will i get th chance to go thailand luh ?
maybe when i growup i will .
shall find a job soon .
so that i will have th cash to .
my mind is so tired .
why isit so ?
blahs ~
DARLING ,
i miss you .
come out soon ok ?
will meet you once you come out .
iloveyoooo x3 .
ending post with quote ;P .
;People drain me , even the closest of friends .
and i find loneliness the best state in the union to live in .
