many things i wana post all of a sudden .
sounded silly .
but ,
i don't wish to keep it inside my heart .
everytime i say ,
i wished you all th best .
imagine th pain i have to endure just by saying this sentence ?
how much time i need to get myself out of a pain ?
thats how much of a influence you are to me .
you're th person i wana be with .
you're th person i wana talk to whenever i have problems .
you're th only person i will wana say ,
iloveyou .
you're th person i will wana call 'daddy' .
you're th person i will remember everything you say .
regardless its th past or now .
how much i missed th time together .
waiting for daybreak and take pictures together .
how we ton everynight just to acc eachother .
imagine how much i've missed you .
nomatter whoever i'm on th phone with ,
you will always be th main topic ,
myex myex .
do you know that ?
my friends are frustrated by th number of times your name appeared .
i couldn't control myself either .
whenever you say you loved me .
whenever you say you wana meet me .
my tears will definitely roll down .
idk why either .
happiness ?
or sadness ?
tmr is my school's carnival alr .
from th first time i brought you into school .
i have thought of bringing you back more .
tell every1 ,
YOU are my boyf .
but ,
just once .
and ,
nomore chance to .
guess ,
tmr will be a diffcult day for me to stay real happy .
except seeing some old classmates ,
god sisters and brothers .
when can i meet you ?
this question has always been in my mind .
do you think i wouldn't want to be with you even just for that day ?
me not calling you ,
means i din't wish to disturb your life you know ?
i nolonger wana be a slut .
its so hurting .
i wana convey this msg to you boy ,
i will learn to let you go .
to find th person you loved and earn to be with th most .
it doesn't mean i will be able to stop loving you .
i won't lie to myself .
if you did see this post of mine ,
don't feel much .
this is whatever i am feeling .
sorry for making you worry .
because of me crying now and then .
you know clearly why my tears will roll down .
sigh .
lets just stay happy .
definitely you are still in th category of ' th person i loved ' .
not best friend .
maybe 1 day .
when my heart dies .
if its possible .
let me recover .
have a puff .
cried kinda hard just now .
breathe in ~
breathe out ~
crap .
shall relax my mind .
and find a better chance to chat with you again alright ?
i'm sorry .
takecare boy .
i've always loved you like how i used to love .
x3 .
Labels: i have never regret th path i choose, ILY .
