almost committed suicide last night again .
thoughts of me slashing myself flashed by again .
was really depressed .
cried alone on my bed .
wana get out of th fcuking house .
but ,
where could i go ?
sigh .
i don't wana understand what is ,
relationship ,
sistership ,
friendship ,
familyship .
they all LIES !!!
-CLARENCE ,
my previous post might hurt you .
but , you should understand how i feel ?
i told you before .
i'm really suffering .
i love you like nobodies buisness .
you told me , i should understand you .
but , did you tried understanding me ?
maybe , 1 day .
i'll really giveup on you ,
is th day you told me you nolonger likes me .
and , you feel that i'm a pest .
i know , you will always be my baby in heart .
i nolonger care how other people is gonna judge me .
i know what i am doing .
and , it's simply ,
iLOVEyou .
-VIVIEN ,
everything really sounded so hurting last night .
i'm sorry .
i was crying when i typed and when you replied .
i thought i should have let everything go together .
i guess i was wrong .
i have never wanted to let you go .
i know deep in my heart who is my sister .
and , i will never give you up , AIREN x33 .
i promise to stay strong and finish this path .
be it , friends or relationship .
i won't stop halfway and harm myself .
i will finish everything till it's cleared .
thank's for not giving me up and bearing with all th nonsense .
i appreciate it alot .
iLOVEyou !
-WEIHOON&ALINA,
be it whether i'm a true sister to you girls .
be it whether at once you have treated me like a sister .
i'm gonna close my eye .
and pretend everything is real .
i can say it loud .
i have always been there when you girls needed a ear or so .
but , i have never been able to look for you when i'm really in trouble ,
emotionally .
it's only recently ,
i have th thinking of treating my 'sisters' as a real sister of mine .
i have always been a substitute .
when you girls have no1 to find ,
only then my phone will ring .
what exactly am i ?
if i'm wrong ,
please clear my doubt .
i don't wish to live in such sorrows caused by my own sisters !!
-BENJAMIN ,
if you treat me as your brother ,
you wouldn't contect me ONLY when something happened
to you and sarah .
it's obvious .
you din't even contect me when you patched back with her .
where is your msges and calls ?
to meet , to slack ?
you caused so much disappointments to me .
i used to think that ,
even after that group seperated ,
we still can be like how we used to be .
surprisingly ,
i am lying to myself .
i'm also a sub to you .
fine . and thank's for all th false hope .
i really really wish everything is true ): .
-YVONNE ,
yeahs . we used to be so closed .
we used to be eachothers closest sisters .
but , we clearly know ,
why did we have to endup this way .
be it misunderstandings ,
be it anything .
i'm glad we are still friends right now .
you will still share your problems with me .
i hope it's a right decision for you to Uturn .
all th best .
i will be clear of what to do .
all i need is people there to encourage .
that's more then enough .
thank's alot .
you'll always be my NUER .
takecare loads ,
we will still love you as a sister !
i hope everything is TRUE .
everyone is TRUE .
this is a fcuking fake world . CB .
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