been working like a dog recently .
because GSS is here (: .
( great singapore sale ) .
laughs .
friends ,
remember to check out th stuffs you wana buy .
most of them are having atleast 20% discount ;DD .
do stock now and then .
tired like fcuk .
shack-ed when i'm home .
no where to go .
no time to go .
sigh .
just had steamboat when i reached home after work .
very very disappointing one .
i asked my second brother .
idk whether this is a dinner for my birthday or not .
or it's because my eldest brother is coming back .
guess what his rep is ...
DO YOU EVEN HAVE TH RIGHT ?!
it goes to show that ,
i'm NOTHING .
FCUKING NOTHING IN THIS HOUSE .
i get my presence only during work .
people remember who am i .
people joked with me .
people talked to me about their life .
people remember my name .
people remember where exactly am i working for .
people remember to asked me together when it's break time .
people jio-ed me for coffee break .
do i get this at home ?
all i have to is to show that i am really happy .
fun .
but ,
who could i deceive except myself ?
who do i actually worked for ?
i have to be there for my mom .
if not i will feel bad .
but , when i need her ,
she choose to go out with my dad .\to shop -.- .
what can i expect from them ?
i really don't know .
tonight .
dinner really scuk-ed .
how i wish i need not be back .
my parents kept talking to my eldest brother .
he totally don't give a fcuking damn atall .
i feel like crying at that moment .
i feel so scuky .
i feel as though this is nolonger a family anymore .
we are drifting further and further .
i really don't wish such things to happen atall .
i want a lovely family .
where i could see all of them when i get back from work .
see them watching tv all together .
seeing them enjoying eachothers company .
i really earn to see that .
why isit so difficult ?
what must i do to pull everyone together ?
is this what i should deserve ?
i'm so afraid of th quiet-ness when i step into th house .
with no more laughter from my dad .
no more calling of baobei from my parents .
i'm really really tired .
i'm really really down .
i need time to peace myself .
i need a breathing space .
i'm sorry .
i was really wrong in th past .
daddy and mummy ,
i promise .
i will be a good girl .
i hate to see you guys cry ,
i hate to see you guys worry .
i love you !
i will takecare of th both of you till my last breath !
