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Thursday, 11 June 2009
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i have been a disappointment .
i have let everyone feel that i have changed .
i admit so .
idk how to say about myself .
i've tried to relief th stress .
i've tried to make myself steady and not harbour negative thoughts .
but , i couldn't .
i keep failing .
i have become a stranger to everyone .
i nolonger wana speak to people .
i nolonger have th thought of doing things ,
or helping my sisters and brothers .
my mind is in a whirl .
like a whirl pool .
i've been having funny thoughts .
what i want is just to have money .
friendship and relationship .
it nolonger stands in my heart .
thats why .
th moment i thought about me letting go christ ,
but , i did not shed a tear .
nomatter how long i am with a guy ,
if we part , i will .
don't you feel , this part is kinda wierd alr ?
i used to feel . i need a guy to be there .
i need their comfort . i need their care .
i don't need it now .
this isn't what i wanted atall .




some part ,
i have changed to be so cold blooded .
i can just ask someone to shut up when he / she is talking to me .
and it's something good for me .
why did i have to be like this .
yes .
this isn't what i wanted .
but , if i continue to be like how i am in th past ,
that's it . it's th end of my life .
i don't have aims ,
i don't have courage ,
i don't have th will .
right now , i have .
i have th strength to get th things i wanted .
i guess , it really isn't right .



sorry to people whom i've hurt .
i hope you guys will understand that ,
somethings i said , really hurts .
i couldn't control .
lastly , still , i'm sorry .
i will compensate .
and learn to be a good friend and sister .
takecare .
i need time ...
thank's .




The love, The care, The heart, The will. I LOVE YOU <3

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