yes. i am very vexed now.
i just need to rant.
i just need someone who could just be by my side.
the least is, be there to listen to me.
but, there is practically no one.
NO ONE. i need to breathe.
i feel so stressedup.
what i need now is money.
yes. if the problem can be solved with money,
it nolonger is a problem anymore.
i know. first step,
where is my money then? sigh.
family. my family is fcuking in a mess.
it's so messed up. it's so irritating.
idon'tknow. i can nolonger endure my grands.
she is too much. she keeps insisting that my maid is in the wrong.
then what? everything she do is right isit?
come on. seriously, everything you've done IS WRONG.
i told my dad. i would rather be the old want.
atleast whatever we do, we can just fcuk it.
people will say, we must respect the elderly.
rather then we got to act like a dog, standing behind them all along.
i don't wish to say such things.
i have been keeping quiet.
i have tried to swallow every nonsense they gave.
but, i nolonger could.
i am really stressed.
having to handle both jobs well.
isit possible? i hope so.
i really wana show them, i can.
i really wana prove to them that i'm more worthy then,
their 2 son. which are damn fcuking useless.
who don't give a damn to parents atall.
who just stretch out their hands to ask for money.
ask yourself. have you give them anything atall?
you work-ed. you study, now you're in NS.
then, what exactly have you give them?
make them worry. make them cry.
make them looked like a dumb fool trying to find their son.
do you think they deserve to be so pathetic?
you have a girlf so what?
do you think i react like you when i have a boyf?
please, the both of you are grownup's.
can you don't? i really had enough.
i'm so damn unwilling to sms you guys.
i'm so damn tired having to face you guys.
if i has the chance, i will leave.
i had enough of you guys treating parents like your dogs.
who are you to treat them like that?
sorry. in my eyes, you guys are FCUKING NOTHING.
you guys don't deserve to be someones child.
you guys have no heart atall.
and you expect mom to say sorry to you?
please lah. can you please stop making me cry?
because of family. i am so tired.
idon'tknow what exactly i could do next.
no one in this family understands me.
no one encourage me.
no one cared about me.
no one give a damn to my presence atall.
so, what am i here for?
i really don't know.
all i know is, i am really damn tired.
someone, can please rent out a room to me?
i hate staying here. i hate living here.
can't i just get the peace i want?
can't i just lead a happy life?
can't i have a wonderful family?
everything scuk-ed.
it really scuk-ed.
please!
LET ME GOOOOOOO!
