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Tuesday, 28 July 2009
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it's really been long since i ever slept well.
slept for 1 and a half hours last night.
and, are having serious dark circles now.
sigh. when will i be able to sleep well?
i really earn for it the most now):



realised i was really such a bad person in the past.
i scolded people when they tries to change me.
sigh. seriously, i don't recall doing such things.
idon'tknow why i behaved that way in the past.
luckily i changed in time.
and, i prefer the way i am right now(:
sorry for all those nonsense in the past.
to all my friends, my past relationship,
sorry for all those childish acts i had.
i've realised. and have changed(:
thank's for being patient and waited for me,
to start afresh((((:
i'm really glad.



i missed my past.
i missed my 8month past.
i was really hoping to gain it all back.
i wanted it to be continued.
to a year, or two or even more.
i know. feelings cannot be the factors for two to be together.
for our age. we have to change our thinking.
we have to be financially stabled.
you said you weren't good enough to be with me.
you said you have no look, no cash, no nothing.
you said many negative stuffs about yourself.
i still look upon them as your own barrier.
as long as you are good to me.
as long as you know what you want in life.
as long as you won't be like what you used to be.
as long as you tell me you still loved me,
as much as you do in the past.
and you mean it.
i will be over the moon.
i tried pulling our feelings back.
i tried to fall back for you.
you tried to convince me that,
sex won't be the factor you are looking for,
if we were to patch.
i am really happy.
you tried. you wana convince me.
there is nothing i can do.
except believing what you said.
you said looks aren't important.
likewise, no matter whether i will slim down in the end,
nomatter i will changed to be how different,
in terms of looks and stuffs,
i will never despise you.
i may have come across people which are rich,
people which are better looking.
so what? i don't think it matters.
for now. yes.
i told you. relationship isn't what i wanted in life.
all my words are for the future.
if we are meant to be,
somehow, we might endup being together again.
i will always wait for a trip with you,
being the second person who will be in your car.
and, i hope. it will be fulfilled.
nomore empty promises.
my heart will be shattered.
lets pray hard.
things will turn out to be what we earned for(:
maybe, I STILL LOVED YOU.


sounded kinda silly.
but, i guess. somehow or another.
someone will understand how i feel exactly.
as, i din't wana give up a relationship.
where we have gone through so much.
and here. we have cleared every misunderstandings.
and, are being very happy right now.
will things turn out to be what i wanted?
lets just wait and see.







it's gonna be a rough path...




The love, The care, The heart, The will. I LOVE YOU <3

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