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Monday, 5 October 2009
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having mix feelings right now.
idon'tknow what to do.
he can't reply.
in case he get caught.
he'll be confined.
and i freaking have to get used to not being able to contect him?
i really hate this feeling.
sometimes i hate being home.
i'll keep thinking about everything.
i don'twana be home alone.
maybe from then i shall work every single day.
to keep myself occupied.
argggh.
i have no confidence.
we are just so unstable.
i'm so worried.
i'm paranoid):
i told hin.
i thought i would be able to get used to everything after weeks.
but, no.
the harder i fell for him,
the more i wouldn't bear to part with him.
sometimes i rather not meeting him atall.
then i wont't need to think about leaving the next moment.
sighsighsigh.
his last message for me is a 7 in the morning.
till now.
hope he reply me soon.
i missed him bloody much):
baby, i need your assurance.
i need you to tell me straight.
i need you):




sigh.
there is seriously nothing i could say.
all i want is everything to end soon.
FCUK-ed.




anyway,
bon voyage sumei.
please be careful.
enjoy yourself to the fullest.
use this chance to forget everything.
he is just a son of a bitch-.-
sigh.
whatever it is.
change to be whom you used to be in the past.
i will wait for you(:




feeling freaking down now.
hiding inside the room.
i am tired.
really tired.
i need a break.
a real good break.
i'm sorry.
goodbye.

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